I guess I must start this post with saying Happy New Year! I didn’t want to be one of the typical cheesy people who says ‘New year New me’ kinda thing, but in a way, it’s a really good thing to motivate yourself. So I’m going to say it. It’s a new year and I am working on a ‘new’ or I prefer ‘better’ me. There are a few things that I really want to focus on in 2018,
I have always suffered with confidence. If I’m being completely honest, I try to put on a front as if I’m this really confident person and that I don’t care what the world thinks but that’s a lie. I care way too much what everyone thinks about me. The most frustrating part is that I know there is no need to worry what people think, but I’ve convinced myself that I need to worry and please everyone. Even when writing this post I am worrying what people are going to think about me. Well this year I am going to try, and I really mean try, to think about myself only.
Whether that means me standing in a street getting my photo taken with loads of people looking at me or Eli grabbing my hand to dance in a shop. I just have to remind myself that these people don’t know me and it says more about them if they are judging me.
2. Love Myself
Like many other people, I am my biggest critique. I can be extremely harsh on myself which results in me feeling very down and shutting the world out. I go through stages where I am happy with who I am and also stages where I hate myself inside and out. I can’t win. This year I need more self love. I must learn to love the skin I am in and accept myself for who I am. Instagram is probably the worse thing for me and encourages a lot of bad thoughts because I sit there endlessly scrolling looking a beautiful beach babes with tanned killer bodies or London girls with gorgeous long hair and gucci everything. As much as it saddens me, but I will never be like that and I have to accept that. Everyone is different and blessed in their own unique beautiful way and I need to realise that about myself.
2018 is a year of change because hopefully I will be going to University. I am extremely excited (if I get in) to start a new adventure somewhere else and meet a load of new people! As much as I love where I live, it really doesn’t suit what I want to pursue as a career and it lacks a lot of opportunities. So getting off and starting somewhere new is incredibly scary haha but I need it and who knows what the possibilities will be! The thing I am most excited about is actually having something to do. It sounds so sad but I can’t wait to start doing coursework again and having deadlines! But hey, who knows, I might not even get in!
4. Healthy Eating
I’m going to get straight to the point, I eat a lot of crap. Let me be more specific, I eat a lot of chocolate. It is actually quite worrying how much I consume and how much I always want it. The worse part is is that I don’t really eat much healthy stuff to balance it out. I rarely ever eat fruit or vegetables, don’t drink enough water and hardly do any exercise. Wtf is wrong me?! It has even got to the point where I am saying that I ‘need’ chocolate. Eli is starting to get a little worried and saying that I have an addiction for it, and now I’m starting to worry myself. Depressing as it sounds, I’m not young forever and if I carry on the way I am now, my future self is going to be in deep shit.
I am going to attempt to cut down on the amount of sweet food I eat. It will be extremely difficult but I really need to do this for myself. Actually eat fruit and vegetables everyday, and drink lots of water. Wish me luck for not having chocolate. *sad face*
5. More blog love
I want to give this blog a lot more love. Try and post as regular as I can with lots of different content and focus on getting it out there a bit more. Whether that is outfit pictures, travelling, baking or me blabbing on about random topics. I need to believe more in myself when it comes to writing my posts because this is my blog, with my thoughts and there are people out in this world who read it (which still blows my mind!)
I’m a bloody negative person. I think the worse of everything. I’m that person who see’s the glass half empty rather than half full. I need to get out of this mindset and try and focus on the positive. Life is too short to be thinking about all the bad things. Focus. On. The. Positive. Chloe.
Shit happens, get over it.